In 2000, while attending bible college and training for the ministry, I allowed myself to be entangled in a web of sin and iniquity. At the time, I knew I was not living in a way that was pleasing to God, but the sin that was in my members deceived me and I paid a great the price for the sin. It is true that sin takes you further than you’re willing to go, keeps you longer than you’re willing to stay, and costs you more than you’re willing to pay. I lost my testimony, almost lost my mind and but for the grace of God, I would have lost my life as well.

It is by the grace of God and only by the grace of God that I am still here and “in my right mind.” What resulted after my  fall, was my headlong rush into a life of rebellion. I wanted to die you see, and not having enough courage, or it could be that I had not yet built up enough of it, I decided to live a life in rebellion to God in the hopes that He would strike me down in His righteous indignation. I hated everything, including God and I lived my life as though I was estranged from God. I even took upon myself the nickname “ProdigalGemini”, symbolic indeed of the son who in rebellion willfully left His father’s care and love and went into the world to make his own way. I was indeed a Prodigal, but with a twist, I had no intentions of going back home ever. I intended to tire God out. God would arrive at the end of His patience, and He would destroy me in His righteous anger. That was my plan and I played it perfectly.

The Prodigal Son by Liz Lemon Swindle

The Lord however in His infinite mercy and love, returned every act of rebellion with an act of unmerited favour. When I flew in the face of God, and shook my fist at Him, He would respond with a plate of food everyday and a place to lay my head every night. When I went against His will and reminded myself of the bible verses that said “God would smite the wicked”, He would bring to my mind the verses that spoke of the fact that He “was not a man”, and that His “ways are not my ways”. God never once rewarded me with what my rebellion and iniquities deserved. Instead He continually, unfailingly showed me a Father’s care, concern and provision.

Then one day in the midst of my rebellion, it dawned on me that so many other’s, even in biblical times, received swift righteous justice for their crimes against God. Some of them committed far less offences than I and were not spared. At that time, my heart was torn asunder and I realized that I had been living, existing, walking, breathing by the grace of God. At that time, like the Prodigal Son, I made the decision to go back to my Father’s house.

GlobalMicaiah.org was born out of the event that was my journey back to God and His purpose for my life. Even though I had failed tremendously, and had rebelled greatly He made it clear by His merciful hand that He still had a work for me to do. Going back to the Lord was easy, it was a decision of the will at a moment in time, but the realization of the move did not happen overnight and is still a work in progress up to this day. I had lived a life of rebellion for many years, and much damage was done. I had to take my time and with God’s strength and help, I made my way back into His purposes for my life.

In the process I realized there were so many others just like myself who have lived a life of rebellion, running from God and living as estranged children. Many of them like me have done great damage to ourselves in the process, and returning to God is a task not easily handled. It is my hope that the Lord Jesus uses GlobalMichaiah.org to help others like me who have a desire to return to God but for one reason or another find it difficult to do so. Either because of circumstances, the deceptions of the evil one, or our own messed up minds. May God use us here at GlobalMicaiah, even by the little that we do, to accomplish His purpose in the lives of His Prodigal children.

Bro. Everard J. McBain Jr.
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